Life has been real hard & today felt like the worst.
Everyone seems to be having an aim or something in their life, and I'm just here earning money to repay the loan for studying. How lifeless can I be?
The older I get, the lesser confidence I have with myself.
I look myself and all I think will be, why not pretty enough?
Why not skinny enough? Why not attractive enough?
People seems to get it so effortlessly but I can't.
Why did looks become so important to everyone?
I used to think that I look kind of good without make up, but not now.
I look so crappy with my droopy eyes and chubby cheeks.
My awkward smile & burdensome retainers.
My flat nose and uneven eyebrows.
I don't even know what I've achieved throughout the years.
I need to start to do something, but I dont know what I should do.
Really, just fuck my life.
I have to grow up and get out of this fucking poverty.
I swear I'll never be poor .