Headed to Partyworld a few days back with Sister and Ting.
Was really feeling kind of down on that day actually and the last minute singing kind of cheered me up.
Sorry for the big eye bags above, totally lack of sleep from loft.
Anyway, one paper down and two more to go. Totally have to mug die and my brain can explode anytime. Hate studying, hate people expectation, hate people thinking that getting good results should be normal for me. I mean I have to work hard for stuffs too.
I didn't get good results without doing anything, I didn't get money by just asking from my parents. I didn't forget my mistakes, I just live with it.
Just wanna say, I'm not perfect, I'm human too. Don't expect me to be good in everything.
I make mistakes, you do too.
You wanna judge me, I don't really want to care anymore. I'm a bitch, then I'm a bitch.
I'm stuck up, then let me be. Sick of people telling me about their opinion and never once they thought about me. So, I don't really care whatever people say anymore. You don't know me, you don't know my life.
Sometimes I just want to feel love, but all I get are bullshits.
Sometimes I just needed someone to care, but all I get are complaints.
Sometimes I just needed some word of encouragements, but all I get are disappointments.
The more you get disappointed, the lesser expectations you have.
Maybe someday I'll stop expecting.
Hate myself for thinking too much at times, hate myself for being so dependent on people.
When you keep pushing me off, idk how I should feel.
But when you start pulling me closer, I'll keep thinking that you are doing that cause you don't want me to feel sad. Insecurity level really damn high up.
I'm a burden, I always am.
I said I wouldn't change your life but actually I am isn't it?
You didn't need to have such a hard life with me, you can just ignore me.
Sometimes I feel that maybe I should just leave and stop making people's life so hard.
I feel so useless at this point of time right now, like why am I even born?
To make people sad, to make people disappointed.
Got to stop thinking about all these.
Sorry for all the rants.
Toodles readers. Xoxo.
You wanna judge me, I don't really want to care anymore. I'm a bitch, then I'm a bitch.
I'm stuck up, then let me be. Sick of people telling me about their opinion and never once they thought about me. So, I don't really care whatever people say anymore. You don't know me, you don't know my life.
Sometimes I just want to feel love, but all I get are bullshits.
Sometimes I just needed someone to care, but all I get are complaints.
Sometimes I just needed some word of encouragements, but all I get are disappointments.
The more you get disappointed, the lesser expectations you have.
Maybe someday I'll stop expecting.
Hate myself for thinking too much at times, hate myself for being so dependent on people.
When you keep pushing me off, idk how I should feel.
But when you start pulling me closer, I'll keep thinking that you are doing that cause you don't want me to feel sad. Insecurity level really damn high up.
I'm a burden, I always am.
I said I wouldn't change your life but actually I am isn't it?
You didn't need to have such a hard life with me, you can just ignore me.
Sometimes I feel that maybe I should just leave and stop making people's life so hard.
I feel so useless at this point of time right now, like why am I even born?
To make people sad, to make people disappointed.
Got to stop thinking about all these.
Sorry for all the rants.
Toodles readers. Xoxo.
