To me, there's three reasons why people lie to me or why I lie to others:
(1) I don't see the need to say
(2) The person isn't important
(3) White lies
Reason 3 is the worst.
Actually all 3 reasons sucks enough to make me realize lying isn't right.
I lie to my parents, because I know there are some things they confirm say no to me. That's reason 1.
Hi-bye friends ask me about gossip things or whatever shit that doesn't concern me. Of course, who's free enough to explain or say anything about it. That's reason 2.
Because you love the person too much and you don't wanna hurt him/her. That's reason 3.
Reason 1&2, I'm sure like 99% of people do that before.
I said white lies before too, but I just didn't realize how bad it feels when it happened to me.
It felt like I'm a control freak where my boyf or anyone close to me choose to keep things from me. Like I'll get mad and go crazy. I do that, but have you realize the consequence when I find out. How do I trust again? Especially when we did the promise thing. People or even you may feel that it's stupid but to me, it's important. A promise is a promise, though I always say promises are meant to be broken but I haven't see myself doing that.
It's my fault, for restricting too much, for letting you to feel that it's better to lie than see me flare up.
It hurts, I can't explain how it felt like. It's like, how you feel when you lie to your parents. You feel that they are irritating and you just need to lie to get pass them. That's how I felt, like it was all my fault for caring too much.
For stopping you to do what you like to.
I can be like real naggy at times, but it's always for other's good.
If I don't care, why do I bother saying?
And now, maybe I should just shut out all restrictions and let you do anything you want to.
Yeap, I give you your freedom.
You are free.
