You always said that you are working on it, but how long more do I have to feel that it's wrong to have friends around me?
How long more do I have to make friends and boyf two different things?
I really want this relationship to work out but you know, the way you behave around my friends, it pissed me off.
I make your friends mine, why can't you do the same?
I made this mistakes once. I lost my girls once.
I prioritized boyf before, but it did no good.
I know you will say that they are girls, so it's ok.
But have you realized, I can't make girlfriends in my poly life.
Surrounding me are all guys, and I thought you know that I get along better with guys since secondary school days.
Sometimes I don't know how to continue this thing any longer.
We are forever quarreling over the same thing over and over again and you always said sorry, but you know, sorry doesnt solve anything.
It's selfish to tell you to change, but I want you to change this.
Jealousy is just gonna kill this relationship.
I got to admit that those girls who choose freedom over love have great courage.
I thought of it, but I can't seem to let go.
There's too many things I'll think about, but if you continue behaving like this, I don't know when I'll give in to freedom and give up on love.
I changed too, from always texting to texting only when I'm free.
Not when I'm with you or what so ever. So I dontknow why you can't change your mindset that my friends are gonna win you.
I assured you a million times that I wont let you down and you still let me down after that million times assurance.
I got tired of always having the guilty feeling whenever my friends asked me out but I got to reject them cause I know that you dontlike me to go out with them.
I gave you freedom for what you like, why dont you give me freedom for my guy friends too. You did say I can go out with them, but you always give me the 'they are the bad guys' look. Then what?
You trust me, you dont trust the guys and in conclusion, you dont trust me when I'm with them. I can't change your thinking over 11 months.
It's your choice, to change or I'm just gonna give up on everything.
