My eyes hurt like fug from all the crying ):
Something terrible happened yesterday.
Went to ECP with dear for a supposed-to-be-happy cycling session.
I was like unexpectedly energetic and I didn't complain that I am tired.
We cycled till quite far and there's a narrow road. There's a family walking on it so I have to like turn in order not to bang till them.
That's when disaster happens.
I went too near to the walls and it scraped till my last toe.
At first I thought it was normal, cause blood was flowing out. But after that, blood was like totally overflowing, literally non stopping.
My whole slipper was stain with blood and it flowed to the ground. Can you imagine how gross it was.
But really, thankfully, dear was there.
He kept using tissue and put pressure on my leg, but it wasn't enough.
A car stopped by, for fishing though and we lend tissues from them.
It was still bleeding and bleeding.
After that a kind hearted girl stop by and asked us if we needed water, hell yeah, we needed it, and she stayed with us throughout the whole session.
I'm so grateful towards her.
After that another kind lady stopped to give us a handkerchief. Seriously, without her I should be in the hospital now.
So with the handkerchief, it was easier to give the wound pressure. After holding it there for 10 minutes, dear took it out and seriously, blood was splashing out! Like how guys pee you know.
Literally splashing out. Me and dear had a 5 seconds eye contact and our heart was like oh my fucking god.
We acted calm, dear keep telling me it's ok, it will be alright. I lost too much blood, I can feel that I'm fainting.
Totally black outing in progress and cold sweat all over. I came down from my bike and sat at the side. The girl told me to drink water to replenish my body sugar level.
After like 30 minutes, my blood finally starts to stop flowing. I didn't want to see my wound. Dear used plaster and cover it up, tried to stand up an we went to the nearest toilet to wash it again.
When water was poured to it, I just cried.
Cried like nobody's business! I think the little kids and uncles and aunties are all looking at me.
Dear feels kind of guilty, but it wasn't his fault.
I am damn thankful that he is there you know.
What am I gonna do if he isn't around.
At night, I cried till my eyes are swollen now.
Morning, I cried again. Arghhhh, I'm so fugging useless!
This is something I don't wanna repeat again.
Lesson learnt : wear shoes when you go cycling, appreciate people, especially your loved ones and lastly, appreciate life.
I totally thought that I was dying ):
Thanks dear, I love you.
