Rants

No one knows the misery of having absolutely no one to have lunch with. For long hour breaks, you can't slack in school with your friends cause you don't have one. You got to pack food home and watch variety shows to make yourself feel better. The feeling when you hate being alone but because you don't want people to look down or worry about you, you got to say it's ok being alone. The feeling when you just wanted someone to talk to but no one is ever there for you. The feeling when people talk to you only when they need you and throw you away like you are worst than a dog when you are worthless. The feeling when you are walking alone to class and you see everyone in groups staring at you like you are an outcast in the school. The feeling when You are just too proud to admit that you need friends. The feeling when you tell yourself it's ok to be like this so you won't have to self pity. The feeling when you have been comforting yourself for one and a half year saying that its ok to be alone, it's ok to be friendless and now, it just all burst out and I got to say. I'm not ok being alone, maybe not for today. I'm not ok doing things by myself. I don't want to be treat like a rubbish. I want a friend. Just as simple as that. I need a friend, just for today. I'll be strong back tomorrow, to who I'm suppose to be.