Seriously, I need to change.

I want to be a healthy and slim girl. I love to eat, but I guess my stomach just dont.
Everyone says being happy is the most important thing.
So I'm happy when I'm skinny and I'm upset when I'm hungry or when I eat.
Then now what?
I can't be both happy and upset.
So I decided to change my life.

To: Weighing Machine
How I hope I can just throw you away so I wont have to care about my weight anymore ):
But I dont bear and I dont want to.
Sigh, I'm such an ass. From today on, guess I'll be finding myself comforting myself about my weight gain.
Since it will come, let it come earlier so I wont have to be so troubled anymore.

I'm getting crazy, shittyzxc!