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Hmm, very long never post lehrs, i know.
Not in a tip top condition today, felt really bad inside.
Its not what the coach says in the afternoon, where almost everyone in the class cry like hell.
But i did not cry, and i did not sleep as well. I was just thinking, what i want.
Last part of the day, i felt super super bad.
Andrea called us to write down our lifeplan. guess what?
I dontknow where i wanted to go. Everyone seems so happy, writing down alot alot of things in their sketchpad. While i just keep re-doing and re-doing, which in the end, i did not want to write anymore. cause the sketchpad will only have, LifePlan, BukitViewSecondarySchool, & no more.
Didnt know how to continue from here anymore. See my right, ACJC, CJC, etc etc.
Everyone knows where they wanna go, but, where i wanna go??
No aim...
Just feel like shit.


& why do things i dontlike when i am like freaking damn piss?
You can make everyone hate us, forget it...
I give up on you, you dont even love yourself, why want us to love you?
When will you ever grow up? You are not the boss, you dont control everything.
You dont always get things right in your life.
So, if you feel angry with us. forget it.....
Cause its always about the same thing, and we are always explaining the same thing.
Live in your own world then. Where everyone listens to you == childish....


以前有想过，这双手几时会不属于我。
没想到这么快。
我说我为了他，牺牲了很多，但是，他为了我，牺牲了更多。
如果要恨，恨我好吗？至少我被恨得话，我就不会这么难过了。