2014

So, it's been long since I had the feel to blog. Part of the reason is that I do not have my own laptop.
I'm so gonna get my Macbook during Dec.

It's already 2014, looking at all my previous posts, I'm so amaze by myself. Haha.
How can I be so different from a year back?

I'm moving on to Year 2 of my University life, even though I failed one module, but it's okay. Life carries on.
I'm already working for 1 year + and continuing.
I got a really loving boyfriend and I have a cheerful bunch of friends beside me. All I can say is, LIFE IS GOOD :)

So recently, me and a few friends decided to head for a short getaway at Montigo resorts at Nongsa.
We settled all the ferry and villas and off to go!

We had fun, lots of fun. Haha. Drinking at night was really crazy but since I got no memory of what happened, I shall not comment. Lol. 

Anyway, my growing of fringe is a success! But I feel like cutting my fringe now. I wanna look young and youthful again. 

I look so mature and old now :( 

So I have supporters for my long fringe as well as my short fringe. 

I cannot decide. Shall go and dye my hair first before deciding anything. 

Alright, toodles guys. 

Bring me back to those days

Life has been real hard & today felt like the worst. 

Everyone seems to be having an aim or something in their life, and I'm just here earning money to repay the loan for studying. How lifeless can I be?

The older I get, the lesser confidence I have with myself. 

I look myself and all I think will be, why not pretty enough?

Why not skinny enough? Why not attractive enough?

People seems to get it so effortlessly but I can't. 

Why did looks become so important to everyone?

I used to think that I look kind of good without make up, but not now.

I look so crappy with my droopy eyes and chubby cheeks. 

My awkward smile & burdensome retainers. 

My flat nose and uneven eyebrows. 

I don't even know what I've achieved throughout the years. 

I need to start to do something, but I dont know what I should do. 

Really, just fuck my life. 

I have to grow up and get out of this fucking poverty. 

I swear I'll never be poor . 

It's been long folks

It feels like centuries ago since I've touched my laptop. 

This space is dying so I might just update something, 

Life is getting better as you can see. A lot of things changed, literally a lot. 

I don't even know where to start with. 

I'm starting to like my life now actually. I feel that I'm more alive. 

8th monthsary with Baby was well spent with Plain Vanilla cupcakes, Iron man 3 & dinner at Genki Sushi with YanRu & Del. Except the fact that we were really dead tired. 

Played mahjong at Del's house till 6am the previous day and woah, I admire my awake-ness. 

Last month at BOC and I really kind of miss it already. 

Leaving another comfort zone once again. 

SIM University, Baby going into army, full time OL. This is how much my life changed. 

Haha, it feels like a dream actually. I'm growing up. Wtf. 

Graduation in a few weeks time. So eggcited. 

Some love never fades. Haha. 

Zelo still being a cutiepie after gawd damn how long. 

My girls.

Even though no one is visiting this place but whatever, I will read it myself. 

Toodles, if there is anyone alive over here. 

The Secret

Hello. It's been a harsh week for me. 

Have been mugging, but not really very hard these few days. 

I just want to get in a local uni but trust me, it's so hard. 

Okay, I have to be positive. 

I will do my best for the next few weeks so I wont have any regrets. 

And I suddenly thought about The Secret when I'm feeling so down and lack of motivation. 

No harm giving a try anyway. 

Have to be really confident and trust what you are saying. So here it goes:

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

I will graduate poly and get into a University

Didn't use copy and paste alright. Now I just have to stay confident and do my best. 

Working out makes my life kind of better. 

I feel like sunflowers and sunshine everytime I finish cardio. Haha. 

Anyway, even though life is not at its best now, I still glad for all these people. 

Right? Wrong?

I always feel that we have a different mindset, and I seriously don't know how did we come till this far. 

Sometimes I just want you to sit down and listen to what I have to say to you. 

But words just doesn't come out correctly and I get so angsty. 

Maybe I just can't accept the one thing you love the most. 

Gawd, I don't want to rant here but I really hope we can have a sincere htht sometime soon. 

I'm bursting inside and I don't feel like doing this anymore. 

Anyway, pictures of my lovely girls and idiotic me.

I'm leaving this place soon. It feels like leaving a family, leaving a place that I really love.
In reality, people grow up and we have to go our own way anytime soon.
I'm just the earliest to leave because I'm graduating.
Sigh, now I wish I was back to year 1 so I can enjoy another 2 years here.
Make this last month a memorable one.

And, cardio is out to make me die. 

Better than before

I've always been this girl who says but never does it. 

And I realize I'm just living day by day. I need something to look forward to. 

Goal accomplished: Braces. Fringe. One year at work. Get through poly. 

Goals currently: Drink more plain water. 

Be able to wear a bikini by March

Quit my job

Get through Graduation

But I still hate school. Le sigh. 

Please just let me pass this last semester. It's too hard for me. 

Happiness

Fellow readers, please support BAP new song alright. 

Rain sound ! Zelo *melts*

WISP a few days back and lecturer showed us an article showing that Singaporeans are one of the most unhappy people among 150 countries. 

Survey was made for 150 countries and we are in the 150th position. 

GDP keeps increasing but the percentage of happy people are decreasing. 

We are one of the most emotionless human beings in the world too. 

I never really thought about Singapore culture before, but I guess it's time to. 

Have you been so excited over an outing when you are young, you can't sleep the whole night, but on the next day, your parents told you it's cancelled, you make a fuss and they claim that you don't think in their perspective? 

Have you ever feel damn broken when you are a teenager and the person you wanted to be beside you the most told you to stay strong and he just fall asleep?

Have you ever work so hard for something when you are an adult but got accuse for by the boss for being lazy and not completing your work on time?

I've been told to suck it up a lot of times in my life. 

I got to admit I did have a pampered life when I was younger. Guess I took it for granted and karma hits hard. 

I weren't so emotionless before some stuffs happened. I used to express my emotions well if you read my previous posts. 

I used to expect a lot, but due to many disappointments, I just shut down. 

I used to complain a lot but no one cares to listen anymore, I just shut up. 

I used to be this happy go lucky girl but reality hits me hard. 

I used to love wholeheartedly but pain scares me. 

I used to think of forever but lies exist. 

I hate how emotionless I am for the past few months. 

It's like I should be feeling sad/disappointed but when I see those words coming out, I felt nothing. 

Literally nothing. I'm totally immune to it and I totally sucked it up. 

I don't know whether I block my feelings away or I'm really giving up. 

I want someone to make me feel again. 

My mind has been a mess for these few weeks. I don't know what I want anymore. 

Sigh pie. 

You know, I can close my eyes and just pick anyone and I'll feel that, that someone will show more care compared to you. 

I'm sick of being the one pulling us closer. I'm letting us go. 

Emotionless is an understatement. Totally. 

Anyway, I don't really have the time to update on this space. So, pictures on what I've been doing recently. 

Got my Samsung S3 and trying out the new camera.

Dance & Dinner for koi.
Won a bunch of coffee back!











See any difference?
BRACES OUT YOOOOOO

Spamming photos with La cause I was very excited. Haha.




Project showcase and we needed to wear formal to school.
First time wearing formal. Omg.

All very excited only. Lol.


Wenzi

China OIP !

Sister low !
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Dearie.


Irritating Berry


Joker clique (:

And that kind of sum up my recent life.
Sorry for the long post. Bye